I liked Reality better when it was a dream.

I think that I will turn around and notice the wind blowing tops of trees. I'll see the way the world begins to need color everywhere. And I'll realize how small I really am. And then I'll spin right back around. And say, "Nick, why are you such a prick?
Why can't you just marvel in the hopes that make up this reality? Your world is what you made it. And I don't want a part of it."

I'm through being cool.
Oct 28
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“ Everybody knows that,
You’d break your neck to keep your chin up.
— ignore that last note. i’m not fucking it up this time.
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“ It’s a fight between my heart and mind,
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don’t want to win this time.
— Start waving the white flag. Winter is here.
Aug 29
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“ but you can’t fuck with my integrity.
— but you sure can fuck around with my self-esteem.
Aug 18
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“

this time I’ll disappoint the past
prove repetition wrong

I’m just a failure
feeling better than I ever have

if this is life then I’m ready to live
it feels so good to feel again
— 2005 me could have quoted this. And 2006. And 2007. And now 2008 is quoting it, too. One of these times, I am gonna prove repetion wrong.
Aug 05
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this made my day.

this made my day.

Aug 04
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“ Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better
Oh oh, things are gonna change, oh, they’re gonna change
— best. warped. ever.
Jul 30
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i am not even kidding. i’ve been non-stopped stoked for them/new surrender lately. only reason i want to make an appearance at warped. i want a new anberlin hoodie, too.

i am not even kidding. i’ve been non-stopped stoked for them/new surrender lately. only reason i want to make an appearance at warped. i want a new anberlin hoodie, too.

Jul 28
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it’s tricky.

to keep friendships afloat and safe in even the shallowest of water. it’s weird - i have some rough patches with some, and then my friendships with others are the strongest they have ever been. and then somehow, everyone does a reversal.

but now i am starting to worry that everyone is wanting to forget me.

Jul 27
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“ No it’s not love
Though feels like fire inside of your veins
Burning right beneath the wrist
Begging for a razor’s kiss
To free it from your skin
—

I said I quit. I didn’t, well, I did for a while. I have some good days, but when I have my bad days, my mind surely slips and all of the sudden I’m the same me I was before my “accident.”

Today is a bad day.

Jul 22
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“

Darklit streets are no place for kids
But it gives us more of a home than anywhere we’ve lived.
We’re the scientists left to our own demise.
You’re still our last chance to get out of this place alive.
Wait for me, will you wait for me with arms wide?

Alone, left alone.
Watch us slowly disappear with time.
Alone, still alone.
Forgotten, lost, and left behind.
— I am so excited for the new Anberlin album.